I have decided that this self love/discovery journey I’m on can’t just be primping and prepping. A person only needs so many pair of jeans, and cans of dry shampoo. There needs to be some nitty gritty work being done too. Digging deep into the trenches and getting it done. Sweat and tears sort of... Continue Reading →

Now what? Now what was I supposed to do with this beautiful baby? Where they really just going to give her to me, and let me leave? What if I admitted that I had no idea what to do next? Those outdated movies they made me watch didn’t tell me anything I didn’t already know.... Continue Reading →

22 years ago tonight, I was in full blown labor for the first and last time. Here’s the story of how I became a mother. Morgan’s hospital photo I was 19 years old. The world was mine, or so I thought. I had a great job at Steelcase. I had a full social calendar, and... Continue Reading →

Weekends always go by way too fast. This one was no exception. There was no huge event that made this a great weekend, but rather a million smaller ones weaved together. I have Fridays off. Usually I spend them trying to catch up on the house work. Somehow I always end up in some thrift... Continue Reading →

I recently found out that one of my favorite teachers from high school passed away. She wasn’t just a teacher, she was one of the most selfless humans I’ve ever encountered. There are things in my past that I am not proud of. However to fully grasp the impact she made on me, I’m going... Continue Reading →

First sunset on vacation As you are well aware this winter has been a tough one for me. I remember thinking that I was one small inconvenience, or event from checking myself in somewhere. I was not myself, I was nothing more than an empty shell. I wasn’t happy, I wasn’t sad, I was just... Continue Reading →

I remember you. You were young, a bit cocky and over confident. You played the field and played it well. Life was your playground. Attention was an addiction to you, luckily you never had withdrawals. The eyes, the smile, the perky boobs, the friendly disposition, weren’t you something. You thought 40 year old women were... Continue Reading →

We all have something, a kryptonite sort of speak. It can be a friend, a coworker, even a family member. There is usually someone that you will let treat you like less than, because you love them. You will make excuses in your mind as to why it’s ok. Maybe you’ll drop hints to them... Continue Reading →

Starting out 2021 being brutally honest with myself. I’ve been struggling. I’ve been struggling with emotions that I’ve never experienced before. For awhile I could bury them under my crooked smile, and I tried to preoccupy my mind with being positive and helping others. Surfing Pinterest for inspiration has been a part time job. It’s... Continue Reading →

I’ve been waking up every night at 2am like clock work. This morning I decided I’d get up and do some laundry. I did a couple of loads and scrolled through Facebook. I headed back to bed about 4am and slept until 6:30. Maybe it’s the lack of sleep, the weather, or the fact that... Continue Reading →